YEESH

that was quite the apple of discord moment I had just then, feelin better now, doing something.

in other news in self-defense this morning we had a guy come in towards the end of class, and like the genius i am i volunteer...so i have to close my eyes and let him attack me, i went second, so i knew what to expect but still, when a full grown, fiercely strong martial arts expert who doesn't talk a whole lot picks you up from behund while your eyes are closed, that's a pretty intense little moment. I was actually really proud of myself, i wasn't scared, i just all of the sudden got raging angry and tried to break the hold and kick my way out.