and still there is more

Somedays I really don't know which end is up. I love college. I love the idea of freedom and education. I love the medium to make big mistakes and learn from them. I have learned great lessons here, great to the fullest extent of the term. If I were able I would spend a good deal of the rest of my life in lecture halls...learning from old men and firey women anything that they are willing to teach me.

Here's the ripe question, though. What do I owe the universe (or whomever) for the privelage? I am being well educated (and charged throiugh the nose for it) at a University level, a rather raregift. I am OBLIGATED by taking this particular opportunity, I reapeat, I am obligated, to do good work before I die. I am obligated to use my education and to help another human if and where I can. Some days I wonder if it isn't absolutely wrong of me to not be persuing a degree in mathematics or political science or both. I AM OBLIGATED to be a real person someday. I would really liketo get there. I have NO idea which end is up.

so i get to start another day in this place that i worship thinking, "here goes nuthiin'?"