Time and Time Again

I'm doing better. Sorry to freak everybody out. Part of the talking about what's going on in my head is make the crap convulsing its way to the surface and escaping. Its sort of forcing outward process. It helps me.

Trying to exercise and eat a bit better. Finally forcing myself to deal with that which i have been shove away or falsely labeling "already done with". So that's better. I really like one of my jobs and the other is fine so that's good. Finally have a bit of money and thebirthday cometh with the swiftness. My big goal right now is KEEPING BUSY, keeping moving, and not just sitting inside my own head. I want to really accompish things and im at the right age to do that. Now is the right time to make moves in any direction I can. I am going to be a better, smarter, healthier, and in general stronger self than I have been.

Ani Difranco - Parameters and Manhole --two amazing songs i discovered recently. Embrace them folks.

I got the best birthday gift from megan (two weeks early so even more fun) and I just want to thank her and tell her how awesome she is that she put it together. I love and miss you all everyday.

I though about the boy today and smiled. I hope he is doing well.