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I am. I am too invested in someone who is not willing to be invested in me and honestly, I'm hurtin. WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? Why do I give a damn about this stupid non-relationship? Why do I like this guy so much? Why am I doing this to myself? I am setting myself up to get hurt and that just makes me feel really really stupid and naive and ( oh fuck all) young. I need to let go of this thing just a little bit and breathe and be a kid for five minutes. I've been living inside my own head for days and I"m just hurting so ranting happens. I'm sorry to everyone out there who really doesn't understand. I'm sorry that I haven't explained this better and no it doesn't make any sense. I just need all of this to just get out of my head and leave me alone for just a little while.