christmas and everything after

first, merry christmas. I love this holiday, and don't get me wrong I like presents more than i could possibly express to you. I love Christmas for the lights and the music, not the cheesy awful radio muzac, but traditional church christmas music is one of my first loves.

I miss everyone. I'm freaking out about going to louisiana. Partially due to the fact that missing people will ineviatbly get worse the further i am away. I appreciate everyone's comments on the last post. Thank you. HOwever, acceptance comes from wtihin. SO again, thank you for all you've done but This is something that I've needed to do my entire life and I have to do it, so unfortunately you can't just convince me, you have to leave me to my own devices, much my dismay.

Christmas is treating me well so far. The choir at mass (including my own momma) was beautiful. i overuse that owrd, forgive me.

In other news i don't think I will ever ever be cllose to my granfather. There are few unforgivable sins in my mind and one of them is the desire to simply keep drinking, family be damned.

And finally, renee and i have made a flimsy but promising plan. all of you completely out of your mind fols who have decided to fall for/be attracted to us shall be systematically rounded up and poked wtih sticks until you stop. THis is all for the best as it is unhealthy for you to have done these things in the first place. My love and giant squish-myself-into-you-until-i-can't-breathe hugs to all. I miss you tremendously-katie

update

Focus, Katie. Love yourself. The rest will come in time. Can you really be honest in loving others if you do not love yourself? ugh, sophmore in college and I still have self acceptance issues, ah how my maturity abounds.

I'll whine on my site if I want. BUt, i need to stop whining in life, its annoying, and recently instead of just annoying other i'm also annoying me, so that's gotta go.

Back to the school work that I am "doing now".

COMP

I got it back and up and running and am so happy i could scream! hugs and squishes-kt

hey guys, my comp is in the shop (could be worse, could be in the heap) for the next couple days or so. I love you all but im gonna be harder to get a hold of, so yep, that's the news for now. Love you all, happy festivus. -kt