hurray for turkey and the fam

tomorrow is the day, huh?
the din of the family gathering and having to explain to every realtive how old i am now, where i'm at and who i'm with. I like it, I've always been a people person, but its hard to ward off those same questions every year, and to feel really really young in those places, or really old when im with my little cousins. There isn't much to really do or say that feels honest or real. There is just the interview as though i'm meeting them for the first time every year. The hours in the car before and after are where i am most at ease. Typical me, not really anywhere is where i'm comfortable. Its like renee said, i don't mind falling, i don't want to land.

Then there will be the great shopping endeavor the next morning, which alwasy wears me out before it wears out everyone else, which is not comforting. The trip to old town. All of it. The good news is I miss dan somethin' awful. Its a nice feeling to miss someone, and to be missed. My love of people leaves me horribly alone sometimes and this is a change for the better by all counts.

Someone tell me something honestly beautiful tonight. It makes me happy, and i've decided i'm unabashedly pretty when I'm really really happy. Love and hugs to everybody out there tonight. You know how much you mean.-kates