That long post that i previously mentioned is still coming, but right now, and for the last little while, i've felt kinda bla. I felt lacking in something, and whatever that something is I feel like its been gone for quite a while and only just now am i noticing.

Maybe its medication, maybe its the piles of work, laundry, of everthying that im not doing bogging me down, it could just be me talking myself into a shit mood. (it wouldn't be the first time.

I dunno, in all likely hood its nothing, but I really want to do something about it. Do something myself, prove, if only in this case for this moment, that i can, i don't need help or comfort, i just need to pull myself up by my bootstraps and do something substantial for a change. Starting very soon, i think im just gonna be a more proactive, busy, person. Cuz i can't stay like this. (also i refuse to stay like this)

in other news, the not-so-anticipated list of songs i would dance to, if ever i did, starts now...
in no particular order:
1. Possum Kingdom by The Toadies
2. Come Together by The Beatles