UGH, im such a prick

Somewhere between the stress and the crap I've been acting like a royal pain in the ass to a couple of people, one specifically who really doesn't deserve it, and i feel like a jerk. I don't know, I want to be honest, but I don't want to be inconsiderate or hypocritical. There is so much that I don't understand.
In other news, the hyper-competitive streak that has been rearing its ugly head recently has got to go. I'm NOT in favor. Recently i picked a fight with someon because i felt wounded becuz i felt like i couldn't win at ANYTHING that night, which is no reason to be angry at someone. I NEED TO STOP BEING A STUPID LITTLE GIRL. the sooner the better.