a big long post is coming, i assure you.

UGH, im such a prick

Somewhere between the stress and the crap I've been acting like a royal pain in the ass to a couple of people, one specifically who really doesn't deserve it, and i feel like a jerk. I don't know, I want to be honest, but I don't want to be inconsiderate or hypocritical. There is so much that I don't understand.
In other news, the hyper-competitive streak that has been rearing its ugly head recently has got to go. I'm NOT in favor. Recently i picked a fight with someon because i felt wounded becuz i felt like i couldn't win at ANYTHING that night, which is no reason to be angry at someone. I NEED TO STOP BEING A STUPID LITTLE GIRL. the sooner the better.

Victory is mine, victory is mine, great day in the mornin', victory is mine

I don't have to sling another bagel until CHRISTMAS BREAK! I just walked out of work after my last shift, and i feel great. I've got my car and that's what i wanted, and i worked up until the very last minute. i move back tomorrow, and am looking incredibly forward to seeing everyone, and being unemployed. *hugs all around* (cuz its just that kind of day) -the katster

QUOTES

On the drive home some friends were discussing what the perfect quote for one of us would be...so here it is...the dreaded quotes page...quotes i love, things that remind of something...happy or sad...right or wrong...these are the ones i love that i can think of off the top of my head...

"I know, its the damndest thing, nobody does" - an older but still cool Cary Grant's response to being told "you don't look like cary grant"

the rest may or may not be credited to their authors or given backstory

"Carpe...carpe diem....sieze the day, boys. Make your lives extraordianary"
"The truth is Helen of Troy!"
"time doesn't heal all wounds, it just offers replacements"
"Fuck the damn dolphins" "...a guy tried that once, he got kicked out of sea world for life"
"freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose"
"isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere?"
"there's a song that they sing when they take to the highway, a song that they sing when they take to the sea, a song that they sing of their home in the sky. Maybe you can believe it if it helps you to sleep, singing works just fine for me"
"now you could study shakespeare and be quite elite, you could charm the critics and have nuthin to eat, just slip on a banana peel, the world's at your feet, make 'em laugh, make 'em laugh, make 'em laugh"
"you make me complete...you make me complete...you make me completely miserable"



***more*** i just thought you could use a break
"she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous"
"so you're gonna build it in east st. louis...What, was beirut taken?"
"my hopes are so high taht your kiss might kill me, so won't you kill me, so i die happy. my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewelry, whichever you prefer"
"god, sometimes you just don't come through. do you need a woman to look after you?"
"people do it everyday, and you're a people so you can do it, too"
"its just sugar, it washes out, everything does, baby"
"imagine you're a girl just tryin' to come clean, knowing full well they'd prefer you were dirty and smiling"
"i feel just like a local god when i'm with the boys. we do what we want, yea we do what we want."
"come,death, and welcome. Juliet wills it so"
"you writer, YOU LIAR"
"i am an opera singer, i stand on painted tape. it tells me where i'm going and where to throw my cape"


**a few more**
"you have to promise not to fall in love with me"
"i like pleasure spiked with pain (and music is my aeroplane)"
"and wherefore art thou, romeo? where have all the brave men gone? show me one man who knows his own heart, to him i shall belong"
"i have been a fool for lesser things"


***more later, for those of you who want to attempt it, you can try to figure out where any one, or as many as you can, whatev', is from,i'd be really impressed/think you were intensley kool...either way, it's (this post)a start"

Hey look i'm sorta maybe an adult, in a tiny little way

Today I officially bought my own car. A dark green '93 Civic is sitting in my driveway. In the next two weeks I have to get a whole lot better at driving, cuz, yep, its a stick. I don't totally suck, just mostly. So renee and my dad are gonna be pulling marathon sessions teaching me to drive the damned thing. Tomorrow I go get it liscenced in MY name. Truth be told...I'm SO PSYCHED....i'm so happy and so intensly excited about this car...it's mine, i don't have to share this car wtih emily or my parents, this car belongs to me. And if my mom spazzes in two weeks and thinks i neec more practice i'm still gonna get the truck and my dad will use mine until i vcan go home some weekend and grab some more practice time. I'm gonna be on my own and not suck entirely at it some day. I'm starting to build a life for myself. To prove how not an adult i am i think that some day this week i'm gonna call alex and renee and watch some school house rock.

COMING ATTRACTIONS...i've started to get in the habit of making mixes of just songs i like when im in certain moods...so i'm gonna put up the songs i would dance to if i were a stripper mix...cuz i would so not dance to crap stripper music...not that i'd be a stripper ever, for any number of reasons, but still, music...more later, love to you all out there tonight, and thank you, in different ways to different people for different reasons, thanks, and i miss you all.