I don't want to be average
You wanna hear something scary? I'm really not what people want to think I am. I'm not smart or well read, I listen to bad mainstream music, and most days you can catch me defending myself about all of these things. I live in a world that I've created around my head where I've convinced myself that I'm absorbing all I can from things that I enjoy anyway, thus not ever really having to exert energy in uncharted directions, and then I get to proceed in rationalizing that to myself, its a great system, it works very well. I also rarely stick to efforts to better myself, that's actually the part that bothers me. I really hope I'm not this content to be mediocre, average, and defensive about it. I really hope I'm not so afraid of finding that I'm not as smart as I think I am by trying and failing.
I officially need to look into physics, I need to pursue something challenging in the math and science field or I'll lose the skill I have there as well, and I'm not okay with that. Its the only science I've really enjoyed.
In other news, yep it happened just like i thought it would when I read the book...they're making Davinci Code into a movie, heaven help us.
posted by katie-thecrowcounter at 12:02 PM
4 Comments:
Geeze, you're such a girl.
For the record, you are many things, but you sure ain't average. Oh and those people who can consistently keep up with attempts to better themselves without actually enjoying them, I just call them millionaires.
You are way more than average. I can't believe you are saying this about yourself. You don't always listen to crappy mainstream music, only sometimes. ;P You are the coolest chick I know. Stop being hateful to yourself.
katie wenzlick stop fishing for compliments from the people you know love you. it's bad grammer.
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