written in earnest to someone who knows me very well

I'm gonna try to keep this short since i'm working in less than 6 hours.

A while back I did a very stupid hurtful thing to my best friend. She has forgiven me, and as i said its been a long time since then. However, I still feel a lot of guilt from it. Because of my own feelings I have immaturely let my relationship with her become awkward. I've allowed my feelings from something that I should have moved on from make me not want to talk to her, not want to face her. Things between us have been bad because of me and the way i handled my feelings (or rather how i didn't handle them and just ran away like a sixth grader hoping it would be better or go away).

I love her like a big sister, but I take advantage of that relationship. An apology seems so empty and rude, but unfortunately its what i have and the very least that i've owed her. So, you know who you are, i am sorry, i love you (though i haven't shown it in my actions toward you).

**guys, anyone who is not directly involved in what is mentioned above, i'm gonna ask you not to comment, i know that seems pompous to post something publically and ask you to stay out of it, but i'm asking, this is about someone close to me whom i've hurt and i'm asking you to respect her enough (or me enough) to just leave this one alone, thanks, goodnight, all my love and hugs all around-kt**