I used to be a writer of sorts

I've been thinking about putting up some stuff of mine that I wrote in my spare time that I like but had no outlet for so that's a thought. Feel free to weigh in.

NEWS

As of about 4:30 this morning I am officially and quite happily off the market. -kt

Sometimes I'm Just Wrong

There are rumblings of good things in my future, and that uncatchable guy, it turns out I was wrong about that. NOTHING is OFFICIAL as of now, but things are looking very good. I'm really happy guys. I'm going about this the right way and he is being really great about everything. I'm amazed I had the guts to tell him how i felt. This is just proof that nothing is ever how you expect it to be. So I'm gonna try as best I can to keep my big dumb foot out of my bigger dumber mouth and latch on to the current good with both hands and see what comes of it. I'll keep you posted on things for the most part, as always, from a safe distance. I love you all more than I can say in words, and thanks to the people who've had my back on this and my many other adventures, you know who you are, (and yes Rio, you are totally in there)I am so grateful for you all. Love and great big hugs all around-kt

AND THE WHINY BITCH AWARD GOES TO...yep, that one's mine. I'm sorry for being that way guys, what can I say? I fell really hard for a guy I don't have a shot with. I was just freakin' out. I'll be fine. I've just never been terribly mature about this sort of thing. later-kt

I don't know what to say

Why do I feel so shitty? I guess most of it is just that i feel like an idiot. Why do I always fall for people that I could not possibly have a relationship with, why don't they ever like me back? I guess I just have an awful case of bad taste and worse timing. More later.

Riding high on a great night

Smackdown had a good birthday picnic if I do say so myself...'twas very much fun. I feel so great right now and I doubt I'll be able to sleep, but that's alright, it was worth it, everything about tonight was purely fun. I miss flirting and feeling attractive and I got a little of that in tonight as well, it was all in fun, however.

I refuse to give up hope of eventually having a relationship with the guy I want. If it doesn't happen, it doesn't happen, i'm not gonna push it, but i'm not gonna close myself off from it either. The last few days have had a theme of revelations of truth. Not all the news has been good, in fact finding out about shaun was pretty awful, but its been enlightening.

I've had a theme of "woe is me" on this blog and the chances of that continuing are pretty damn good, but for now as it is i feel good, almost great and overwhelmingly optimistic. To you all, i give you my love, more importantly, i wish for you great things. -kt


Happy Birthday Sarah, I hope it is even better than you imagine it to be!