ARGH

Constantine was cool, having no knowledge of the comic going in i dug it immensly. I need to revamp my social life. I need something, i don't know what yet, but it seems like i keep running into the same brick walls. I need to academically keep my head above water. I really just need to focus on that and not on the social dilemmas i seem to cause for myself and everyone else. AAAARRRGGGGHHHHHHHHH, I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I WANT OR NEED AT ALL AND I WOULD LIKE SOMEONE TO JUST TELL ME AND MAKE IT ALL BETTER. I'm not old enough to be responsible for myself.

Momentarily Less Than Great

Alright, well I'm going to attempt to not let the shitty Anthro grade throw me. After the first round of tests I can say I'm doing ok, not great, so that needs work. I finally moved, so all of that is done.

It's four o'clock in the afternoon and I suddnely feel that the wind has been rushed out of my sails, I'm dead in the water, but I'm thinking its going to be alright, i'll just wait out the feeling this time. I think I'm gonna go read a little bit for me and not for school, chill in peace park, clear my head. Somethin'. Thinking about stuff that makes me sad.

I'M NOT DEAD! I, of course, have a million and two things to say, just not at the moment. Please, just wait for me to dial back the ADD a bit. (should only take a couple of hours)-kt

NO TIME!

I would love to be an emotional wreck right now and wallow in confusion and try to deal with moving abd doing something that would make me personally happy, but i don't have time this week. Expect a long post soon, just not right now. Love.

Watching a Sad Movie

If we were still together, would I finally be in love with you? If we were still together would you stay up and watch a movie with me, even though you needed sleep, even though you didn't like the movie? I bet you would. I bet you'd have been the best relationship I'd had up to this point, or at least the healthiest. I would have been happy about that, but I wouldn't really have been happy. After a wile, you wouldn't have been either. So its better this way.

Somedays I kind of wish I drank. I bet I would be a great drunk. At that point I would not have to wonder when and what to hold back. It would all come out.

Im just tired, and at night the loneliness of this room is more apparent, not to worry. I will be myself again tomorrow.

Taste

I have not posted in a very long time, forgive me. Forgive me for everything. It seems to me my favorite sin is wanting what I cannot have. I am surrounded by people who love me, but are not in love with me. The few who've tried I've managed to work over just a little bit. I'm passively in love with too many people, due in large part to the fact that I understand how amazing they are and desire to have someone amazing see something like that in me. Yea, that's me.