Christmas and everything after

I love the entire Christmas season, i really do, don't get me wrong. I hate being alone at Christmas, because its so beautiful and perfect and yields itself to all things good and romantic and i can't share that with someone i'm even remotely serious about romantically, those few who i could either are not around through no fault of their own or unavailable or worst of all uninterested. I need to change a lot of things about myself and i'm hoping i have that kind of strength in me. I love you all and wish you the best.
.....in other news, i'm finally talking to someone again, the people who heed to know either do or will find out what the hell i'm talking about. its good, it feels so much better to know that I still really am wanted by someone. i ache for a good, real, workable love, even if it is short and does not end well, I want a good love in my life right now, and at this time of year it is harshly apparent that it isn't happening right now, but i will keep my eyes and ears open, and maybe even let down my guard. A long and probably frustrating list of new year's resolutions will be up soon. all my love and hopes for all of you, love, katie.