vent session

im insecure, i insult myself just to fish for compliments. im in love with love and affection and passion. I want them with a fierce hunger i can only begin to describe with words. I love the idea of being incomplete without one specific person, and spending life finding them and being with them for the rest of your days. That is what life, love, passion should be.

I live in a world ive created. Ive never denied that it was that of an idealist, a romantic, and a silly little girl all rolled up into me. I want the whole world to love me insatiably. I want to be beautiful. I am insecure about how i look, and i love to be loved. its who i am. im so scared. all the time, i hate being alone. My hunger consumes my mind for hours at a time.

There is so much inside me, that i don't know what to do with it all.