stuff, in general

in my short life up to this point i have: fallen in love a thousand times with the hearts that were hidden just behind thousands of beautiful pairs of eyes, i have taken the best friendship i have known to its very grave for the sake of selfish love, i have fought mental wars (crusades that are still being waged inside my own mind). i have lost the battles against time and geography, i have defied everything i used to love about myself, i have suffered, suffered, disappointment, and i have discovered that all of it is crap and people matter more. to be entirely lame and quote the counting crows, which i will be doing a lot, "getting right to the heart of matters, its the heart that matters more" (Omaha, the counting crows). i am stupid and i readily admit it, i babble incoherently about nothing, i have no great accomplishments, and by most, i will not be remembered when i go, which if i have anything to say about it, will be about 90 years from now. God-willing, i'd like to marry j.McG, be friends with rio, alexis, rose, lucas, andrew, and all the best of all the rest, and i wanna make movies, good ones, i love you all